We are a little over halfway through our journey (!), and I am suddenly feeling a little overwhelmed. We left our agency early on as they were not supportive, and left me to navigate the contract alone with a lawyer of their choosing. My IP’s said we could use another agency if I wanted, but at the time did not think it was important, and knew it would save them so much. Later on, I realized many things had been overlooked (for example, I switched to my husband’s insurance at their request as it is surrogate friendly, but the premium is three times what mine was. I am not being reimbursed for this.) All I wanted to do was help my amazing IP’s have a family! I was not thinking of myself (or my own family) as much as I should have.
Now that things are physically more difficult, and realizing I still have the hardest part ahead of me – I wish I had advocated for myself more and am feeling overwhelmed by this. (And normal pregnancy things – our house is a mess when it normally isn’t because of my energy, etc.)
Again, my IP’s are so wonderful. I hesitate to even say “I am feeling a little stressed” to them. I am sure they have noticed I haven’t been 100% myself recently.
I have already talked to a therapist, which was helpful! But they mostly confirmed that I was so wrapped up in helping, that I did not consider what this part of our journey would look like.
Has anyone ever had a similar experience, or know someone who has? I feel bad even typing this out!